LEONG CHIN REBORN!!!!!!!!!!

冲出情绪的框框

沉默了这么久．．．．其实．．．是自己不愿意去接受残酷的事实．．．

也好．．．心。死了．．．

人生新的篇章．．现在开始．．．

情．．．不是我适合玩的游戏．．因为，我永远是输的那一方．．．

情绪．．．控制了我很久．．．也是时候反其道了．．现在．．就让我控制你吧！！

天将降大任于斯人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空乏其身，行拂乱其所为，所以动心忍性，增益其所不能。

一向来．．不管多么大的问题，挑战，我都用它来说服我．．．

现在，是时候醒了．．．来吧．．

我准备好了．．．

冲出情绪的框框！！！！

迎接更困难的挑战！！

心。死了

旧的心死了．．．
新的心．．．活了．．．
我．．重生了！！！
是时候，迎接更大的挑战了～～～

Crab Island

The memories started since I was four. This was the ever first time I leave my home for such a long period. Lots of people always ask me when I told them the story: “won’t you feel scared to leave your home for such a long period? Especially when you were just four!” My answer to them were I just felt too excited and no time for me to feel the fear that time. It was still fresh in my mind, my youngest aunt came visited us at Klang and when she departed back, she wished to bring me along with her and, the memories started from here!

  Long time ago, Pulau Ketam was a desolated and a small island full of "Mangrove Swamps" and famous for its crabs. Three Hainan fishermen from Bagan Hainan, Port Klang, were the first to arrive at Pulau Ketam catching crabs for their living. At first, they came and returned to Port Klang daily. The journey took almost a day. A few months later, they built a small house to stay over nights. They rowed back to Port Klang the second day selling crabs and buying daily sundries it return. After that, they had decided to stay permanently. From here, the island started to develop. The major economic activities on the island were catching crabs, fishes and prawns. Some of them built sundries shop and fish dealer shop. Since “Tanah Melayu” was conquered by Japanese, a lot of people flee to here, because it is safe and peace from war. Thus the population boomed and very fast, it developed to a famous island today. So now, everyone should know which place I am mentioned about, yes, is Crab Island or more familiar with the name “Pulau Ketam”.

Maybe, for others, it was just a dirty, small island, but for me, it was a fun, excited, touched, warm and full of memories place along the one week journey there. I never thought that, the memories will attach with me till now! The peoples here were awesome! I never been to a place that, every single people will know who am I when I just passed by them and they hugged me and gave me sweets. When I walking out alone, just imagine a four years old kid walk out alone at a strange place, I never worried about this, so do my aunt, because  somewhere and somehow, if I stood at a place in the island just for 5 minutes, there will be a lots of people here came and gave me a help! Along the days I stayed at there, I found out that peoples here will not lock their door from day to night. This confused me, because when I am at Klang, the first and most strict order from my parents when I went out play with neighbors were locked the door before I went out! After many years, I only realize that, it was all because the bonding between villagers here were very strong, as they do not need to worry about crimes and criminals here. If one people on the island faced problems, all the villagers will came and helped. This bonding was hardly practice to a city that developed fast and peoples are busy chasing with materialism. 

The tragedy happened when I was eight. My whole family was just finished preparing and going to my grandma house soon. It was as usual that suddenly the phone rang and my mom rushed in and answered the call. But no one of us realize that, it was different this time! The moment after my mom answered the call, she stunned and started to cry. The whole family was extremely shocked! So do I. In my memory, my mom is a strong woman that nothing can beat her easily. The bad news just came so sudden that my only uncle and the only youngest brother of my mom, just killed by his employee on his ship and they cannot found his body! His employee took all the moneys in the ship and till now, they still had not caught him. Things became worse when after three months they still cannot found the body of my uncle and my three cousins were almost same age with me that time. My aunts and my mother decided to sell out the fish dealer shop that owned by my grandfather that passed to my uncle and yet, they sold my happy memories together too. They passed the money to my uncle’s wife for the uses of the kids.

After the tragedy happened, it had been a long years my mom and the whole family to not go to “Pulau Ketam”, because everytime she been there, she will think about her brother’s dead and felt sad. I know I have a lot of cousins there but we do not know each other. Things started to change when my brother started to work. He knew my mom missed her hometown so he planned a family trip to there. Honestly, I was so happy that time and I still remember, that time was the “ghost festival” for Chinese. It was one of the very important festival celebrated on the island. The first step I stepped into the island, I can strongly feel the atmosphere of celebration. Every single house will pray and prepare a lot of delicious food for the festival. This is the first time after so long, we sit down together with the cousins eat, play and talk together. It was so warm and the big families bonding come back again. The trip was worth more than enough for me. We started to go there every few months! The relationships of us with the cousins were strong and stronger than ever.

I miss the time when I went there alone. So, on the beginning of this year, I make my decision to stay at “Pulau Ketam” alone. I miss the sea breeze, I miss the place that I fishing and I knew that this place can calm my mind. I told my mom, she was really shocked. It was funny when I recall it back now. It came to my turn to feel shock and really touched when she immediately called my aunt and arranged everything for me. In most of my memories, she was strict and fierce to me and yet, that time I really felt the love from her. So, in a very rushing way, I went to there, with just a bag of luggage and my camera. Things changed a lot after years. The place was developed now. The wooden bridge that last time I had to hop while walking along to avoid all the holes there, now turned to cement bridge. The famous food “lala chien” there was no longer as delicious as last time. The population there from twenty thousand decreases to five or six thousand only because a lot of youngsters left the island to find a better job, but yet, the people here were still good and friendly enough and I hardly feel this kind of concern in a city!

Days come and past very fast, so do development and behind every development process, pollution happens harshly, so do the island that I loved. The island that famous with crabs and fresh fishes last time, is no longer easy to find them anymore. The greenish blue sea water now turns darker due to water pollution and the rubbish that thrown inside. The island that full of memories, was sick badly now! Actions and precautions should be taken by the villagers and everyone that related to it, to solve and safe the island. Hope the next time when I go again, the island will be much better than ever!

原来，有些坚持．．．．真的很脆弱．．．

乱

乱乱乱乱乱．．．．！！！！！！！！～～～
当断不断，反受其乱！！！！

是时候.....放手了........

心。累了

我也是一个凡人....一个普通的凡人....
我不是圣人...
我也有七情六欲....
我的心是用血肉做的....
我的心...累了............

心，忽然觉得很空虚.............

原来...

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

sometimes.......i m just too innocent and stupid to believe everything will be fine and to a good direction if i think positively!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...........................things will not as easy as that sometimes........

gambateh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!after emo.....it will be a better day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i won trust it anymore!!!!!!!!!! hmmmmmm.................................................................................................T.T

TRY TO BE HAPPY...^^

疯癫时期又到了～～～O.O

最近...傻了...


脾气越来越大了...别人说的东西..都听不进去...
妒忌心都出来了...而且越来越重了....知道这样不好...但是就是不能改...


嗨...成功的人都说....态度决定一切...有时...真的很为自己担心...再继续这样...会发生什么...


心中总觉得有种不吐不快的感觉....每当这感觉一来...就知道...惨了...疯癫时期又到了....


原来...她在我心目中...越来越重要了...重要到我越来越怕了...真么办呢???!!!!当我越无所谓...心中就越痛....
看到她那么累...那么辛苦...脸色越来越憔悴...心中真的很不是滋味...
我真的很没用！！！非常没用!!!

Learning From Kids

today is a good good day!!!!XD


just watched spy kids this evening with her......
just finished teach tuition...after one year i stop it...lol


suddenly...i realize that....kids tought me alotsss...a simple action from them...a simple talk from them...a simple question from them....actually remind us that we are once like them in the past...they let me noe that...actually...life can be as simple as this..we can actually satisfy with soOOOoo simple things!!!


so now....it come across my mind...i am wondering...with such a good condition for the teenagers nowadays...why they still will commit suicide???


commit suicide now like a trend for the teenagers...they can just simply jump without thinking of others...
ok..u jump...finished...but how abt your friends??your family??the ppl that cares abt you!!!pls think before you jump........


Today is a good good day!!!XD...they bring joys to me...and remind me...they are the best medicine when you are emo!!!wuahahahaa.............XD...so guys...whenever you facing problems or emo-ing.....try to learn from kids...they are the best reflector to show us...who is the real us and what role we play in our life!!!!!!!


Learn from them!!!! there are no problems that cnt solve in this world...it is just your mind doesn't set in the correct way to solve the problems!!!


i love kids~~~~~~~woooohoooooooo

回忆记意录 (二）

静止已久的命运齿轮...

已开始蠢蠢欲动了...........

那年....

十五岁的他....

是个内向，外冷内热的哥儿...

能打动他的事与人...一定是善于攻心计...

或...

拥有一股异常热诚与真诚的人...

那时的他....

还未经过世事的洗礼...

在人情世故里...还是个乳臭未干的小子...

好奇于世间一切的他...

糊里糊涂的...

开始了他探索的命运...

十五岁...

是他人生一个巨大的转折点...

他得到了...同龄梦寐以求的...

权利与名誉...

可是...

这一切一切...

对他而言...却是个累熬...

这时已高高在上的他...

得到了许多人的青睐...

站在与同龄不同的出发点..他的想法与大志...

也随着转变了...

他们...

在这时候出现了...

改变了他一世的人...

也巩固了他的思想与志向...

他希望...

他身边的人，事与物...也能和别人一样...平起平坐...

不再是那被人批评得一无是处...

他明白...

为了这梦想...

他必须付出许多...他必须面对许多...

许许多多的批评与流言非语...

可是...

他还是坚持下去...

因为...

那是他的梦...

他那独一无二的梦想...

从小...

一旦他下定决心的事...

他是不会改变主意的...

固执...

成了他的习惯...也改变了他的一生...

他清楚的明白...

他缺乏的...

是经验...待人处事...领导别人的经验...

在这时...

让他能实现梦想的机会...

轻易地出现在他面前...

他...

彷徨了...犹豫了...

因为...

这过程...是异常的艰辛...

固执...又一次救了他...

让他学会了苦中作乐...

让他学会了在学习中学习...

也让他学会了...

实践梦想...必须学会坚持...

在不懈的努力下...

他得到了他所需的经验...

甚至更多...

他终于有能力...

去实践他那不可能的梦想...

抱着满怀的希望...热血...与信心...

他出发了...

踏上他那艰难的征途...

希望与美好...

成了他最大的推动力...

可是...

等待他的...

是一帆风顺？？

还是困难重重？？

玩弄他的那命运齿轮...

这才悄悄的开始运行了.....

回忆记意录

匆匆地，
十八年了...

许多东西...
随着时光的流逝....
也随着发生了精神与质的变化...

思想与情感....
从单纯...变成熟了...
尝到了失去的痛苦..换来了珍惜的可贵...
也学到了如何包容别人...
更学会了感激...

心性...
在很大的程度上...
也改变了很多...
懂得了去在乎以前..根本不在乎的...
人...事....与情.....
也学会了...
要理智的处理事情...

这一切的演变....
没有定义...没有利没有弊....
环境...家庭....朋友....
甚至...
与我们毫无相干的人....
都扮演了异常重要的角色...
改变着我们....
出淤泥而不染...
这流传千古的名句...
赞颂着前古至今的名人...
试问...
多少人...能抵挡着霓虹世界的一切...
而脱俗而出呢??

这一切一切...
都不时不刻的唤醒着我们..
事实...
往往都是无比的残酷....

人生....
就像摩天轮....
有时上...有时下...

知足...才能得到长乐...
凡事都不要太强求...
无变...胜万变...

珍惜身边的每一个人...
生活才会更美好！！！

梦。希望。实践

何谓梦?

梦，这个既美好又漂渺的生理现象，古往今来，曾经给予人们多少欢乐和希望，但又带给人们多少迷惘和惆怅。它像天边那片缓缓飘动着的白云，给人们的生活抹上了瑰丽的色彩，然而一瞬间，白云就变成了一片阴影，给人们蒙上不安和忧愁。它扑朔迷离，神奇莫测，令人难以捉摸。然而它又是那么鲜明活泼，带给人们喜悦和希望。自古至今，世界各地多少文人墨客对它讴歌和赞颂，留下了大量美丽动人的描述，在梦，这个既美好又漂渺的生理现象，古往今来，曾经给予人们多少欢乐和希望，但又带给人们多少迷惘和惆怅。它像天边那片缓缓飘动着的白云，给人们的生活抹上了瑰丽的色彩，然而一瞬间，白云就变成了大地上也流传着许多关于它的美妙神奇的传说。古代帝王依靠它，预卜国家的兴衰、国事的吉凶和自己的命运；黎民百姓也把人间的幸福和灾祸与它联系在一起。

《墨经·上》中说：“梦，卧而以为然也”。认为梦是人在睡眠中认为自己看见了什么，以为发生了某些事情，是睡眠过程中的一种现象。

《说文解字》中说：“梦，寐而有觉者也”。认为梦是睡眠中的一种感觉。古希腊哲学家柏拉图认为：“梦是人类日常生活的继续”。又认为“梦是创造的源泉”。

精神分析学家弗洛伊德在《梦的解析》一书中说：“梦是一种受压抑的愿望经过变形的满足”。

R·F·汤普森在《生理心理学》中说：“梦是正常的神经病，做梦是允许我们每一个人在我们生活的每个夜晚能安静地和安全地发疯”。

王极盛先生认为：“梦乃是人在心理活动中的意识与无意识的信息储存在脑中，在睡眠过程中以一定的方式结合起来的心理现象”。

《现代汉语词典》解释为：“梦是睡眠时局部大脑物质还没有完全停止活动而引起的脑中的表象活动。”

梦....给我们希望....追求我们平时得不到的..

可是...实践才是最重要!!

有梦..有希望...没实践...到头来....物是人非...人去楼空~~