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冲出情绪的框框
沉默了这么久．．．．其实．．．是自己不愿意去接受残酷的事实．．．
也好．．．心。死了．．．
人生新的篇章．．现在开始．．．
情．．．不是我适合玩的游戏．．因为，我永远是输的那一方．．．
情绪．．．控制了我很久．．．也是时候反其道了．．现在．．就让我控制你吧！！
天将降大任于斯人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空乏其身，行拂乱其所为，所以动心忍性，增益其所不能。
一向来．．不管多么大的问题，挑战，我都用它来说服我．．．
现在，是时候醒了．．．来吧．．
我准备好了．．．
冲出情绪的框框！！！！
迎接更困难的挑战！！
Friday 14 October 2011
Crab Island
The memories started since I was four. This was the ever first time I leave my home for such a long period. Lots of people always ask me when I told them the story: “won’t you feel scared to leave your home for such a long period? Especially when you were just four!” My answer to them were I just felt too excited and no time for me to feel the fear that time. It was still fresh in my mind, my youngest aunt came visited us at Klang and when she departed back, she wished to bring me along with her and, the memories started from here!
Long time ago, Pulau Ketam was a desolated and a small island full of "Mangrove Swamps" and famous for its crabs. Three Hainan fishermen from Bagan Hainan, Port Klang, were the first to arrive at Pulau Ketam catching crabs for their living. At first, they came and returned to Port Klang daily. The journey took almost a day. A few months later, they built a small house to stay over nights. They rowed back to Port Klang the second day selling crabs and buying daily sundries it return. After that, they had decided to stay permanently. From here, the island started to develop. The major economic activities on the island were catching crabs, fishes and prawns. Some of them built sundries shop and fish dealer shop. Since “Tanah Melayu” was conquered by Japanese, a lot of people flee to here, because it is safe and peace from war. Thus the population boomed and very fast, it developed to a famous island today. So now, everyone should know which place I am mentioned about, yes, is Crab Island or more familiar with the name “Pulau Ketam”.
Maybe, for others, it was just a dirty, small island, but for me, it was a fun, excited, touched, warm and full of memories place along the one week journey there. I never thought that, the memories will attach with me till now! The peoples here were awesome! I never been to a place that, every single people will know who am I when I just passed by them and they hugged me and gave me sweets. When I walking out alone, just imagine a four years old kid walk out alone at a strange place, I never worried about this, so do my aunt, because somewhere and somehow, if I stood at a place in the island just for 5 minutes, there will be a lots of people here came and gave me a help! Along the days I stayed at there, I found out that peoples here will not lock their door from day to night. This confused me, because when I am at Klang, the first and most strict order from my parents when I went out play with neighbors were locked the door before I went out! After many years, I only realize that, it was all because the bonding between villagers here were very strong, as they do not need to worry about crimes and criminals here. If one people on the island faced problems, all the villagers will came and helped. This bonding was hardly practice to a city that developed fast and peoples are busy chasing with materialism.
The tragedy happened when I was eight. My whole family was just finished preparing and going to my grandma house soon. It was as usual that suddenly the phone rang and my mom rushed in and answered the call. But no one of us realize that, it was different this time! The moment after my mom answered the call, she stunned and started to cry. The whole family was extremely shocked! So do I. In my memory, my mom is a strong woman that nothing can beat her easily. The bad news just came so sudden that my only uncle and the only youngest brother of my mom, just killed by his employee on his ship and they cannot found his body! His employee took all the moneys in the ship and till now, they still had not caught him. Things became worse when after three months they still cannot found the body of my uncle and my three cousins were almost same age with me that time. My aunts and my mother decided to sell out the fish dealer shop that owned by my grandfather that passed to my uncle and yet, they sold my happy memories together too. They passed the money to my uncle’s wife for the uses of the kids.
After the tragedy happened, it had been a long years my mom and the whole family to not go to “Pulau Ketam”, because everytime she been there, she will think about her brother’s dead and felt sad. I know I have a lot of cousins there but we do not know each other. Things started to change when my brother started to work. He knew my mom missed her hometown so he planned a family trip to there. Honestly, I was so happy that time and I still remember, that time was the “ghost festival” for Chinese. It was one of the very important festival celebrated on the island. The first step I stepped into the island, I can strongly feel the atmosphere of celebration. Every single house will pray and prepare a lot of delicious food for the festival. This is the first time after so long, we sit down together with the cousins eat, play and talk together. It was so warm and the big families bonding come back again. The trip was worth more than enough for me. We started to go there every few months! The relationships of us with the cousins were strong and stronger than ever.
I miss the time when I went there alone. So, on the beginning of this year, I make my decision to stay at “Pulau Ketam” alone. I miss the sea breeze, I miss the place that I fishing and I knew that this place can calm my mind. I told my mom, she was really shocked. It was funny when I recall it back now. It came to my turn to feel shock and really touched when she immediately called my aunt and arranged everything for me. In most of my memories, she was strict and fierce to me and yet, that time I really felt the love from her. So, in a very rushing way, I went to there, with just a bag of luggage and my camera. Things changed a lot after years. The place was developed now. The wooden bridge that last time I had to hop while walking along to avoid all the holes there, now turned to cement bridge. The famous food “lala chien” there was no longer as delicious as last time. The population there from twenty thousand decreases to five or six thousand only because a lot of youngsters left the island to find a better job, but yet, the people here were still good and friendly enough and I hardly feel this kind of concern in a city!
Days come and past very fast, so do development and behind every development process, pollution happens harshly, so do the island that I loved. The island that famous with crabs and fresh fishes last time, is no longer easy to find them anymore. The greenish blue sea water now turns darker due to water pollution and the rubbish that thrown inside. The island that full of memories, was sick badly now! Actions and precautions should be taken by the villagers and everyone that related to it, to solve and safe the island. Hope the next time when I go again, the island will be much better than ever!
Wednesday 12 October 2011
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